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| today was not really a good day for me at all...it sucked and i had no fun today....and i wasnt in the mood to talk cuz i think i was treated pretty bad....i have nothin else to say....still i couldnt concentrate, i felt as if no one really accepted me...and thats like one of the worst feelings in the world and i hate that sooo much.... | | |
| i was talking to my 4riend at 3rd period that i had such a wonerful time yesterday, life was getting good, no homework, the girl i liked talked to me, i played maplestory and school was easy, but then i just noticed that maybe the girl i liked is holding something back 4rm me, cuz it didnt sound like she did wanted to talk to me, like she sounded taht she was forced to, and i could tell bcuz she sounded pretty uncomfortable, but then i dont want to think melancholy, i want to b happy and hope what i do think is wrong and that this may be a turning point in life for me.....i hope so....... | | |
| ok well yesterday i just thought about her since i started to look around for something and then she started to pop out in my mind, and i couldnt stop thinking about her until i went to bed and slept.......... today.......she finally commented me and i was too over excited and tooo happy for words for me to describe it was such a good feeling and maybe....just maybe i might get over this crush cuz now that shes with someone and we be able to talk and i can c her smile it'll just cheer me up sooo much that i MIGHT move on, but for nor its too early to say, but i am happy!! | | |
| well i dont remember why i didnt write yesterday but, i think i was to busy with all my work at school that i completely forgot to do this, but yestereday i was talking to a 4riend of mines and we started talking about ... her.. and i thought that he would comfort me like he always does to make me feel better taht i might have a chance with her, but nope..he told me straight out that i should find someoene else to be with, that i wasted all my time waiting for her that im missing out on life as it is, and that theres more girls better then her.... i was denying everything, the way i always do cuz im just way to stubborn, but then he said this "she doesnt care nemore" that i was to shocked i stopped typing and just denied it........ and i just stared at the blank computer screen cuz i minimized the screen, and i thougth about it, and i told myself it hurts it really does, but i noe that my 4riend cared alot and wanted me to move on, but he left it bitter, so bitter for me to swallow, but still i have to think of my morals b4 changing for someone that may not like me at all no more........................... for that i thank him for being pretty tough on me, but still couldnt spared me a bit.................... | | |
| well i dont remember how i thought of her in the 1st place but i did, and i think i saw her pic in my 4riends blog, and it just brought me down since shes everywhere except with me... thats all i got to say.. | | |
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